it's somewhat daunting. i really don't want to make all of this sound like i'm complaining-because getting to this point is kind of a fist pump in itself!- but it's started to make me think a few times before posting and coming to affect how i blog. it's always been just a google search away (proven by the number of people that google my first and last name followed by 'blog' to find it) but now that those people in real life are coming forward i've become somewhat...self conscious? don't worry- i'm not saying my blog is extremely profound or big and important. my blog really is just a silly day to day record of my life and i know most people aren't reading between lines dissecting every word. i think those people are AMAZING when they say anything nice at all to me about my blog in real life (!!) and i get butterflies for hours after something like that happens. but behind that 'publish' button i've started wondering which people will read what and what will get back to others. i start to worry about precisely what this person and this person will think and wonder how another will react.
but, this is my blog. and i want it to stay that way, untouched by who reads it and who knows about it. if something i have said gets back to someone, well, so be it. i like to think i keep things very straight forward and truthful, so as long as those things are true and nothing i say is inherently bad, i'm in the clear.
that being said, hopefully now i can breathe easier when i inevitably write my end of the year posts. and all the posts i want to write and have held myself back from writing i will be able. maggie can get more personal!? yes, yes she can. and there's a lot more to say about everything.