Wednesday, August 15

under the tracks

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This week has been one of the most emotionally draining weeks I've had in a while. It seems that it's been both as bad and as good as it could possibly get and it's only Wednesday morning. The weirdest thing about death is that when it happens, it doesn't feel like the world should be able to keep moving. It doesn't seem like the world should exist without her and it doesn't seem like cars on the street should still be driving, work should still be in play, and anyone should be smiling. I can't for the life remember the last time I saw her and I am well aware that we didn't keep close... but to know the loss her family and our community is feeling is huge. My uncle called on Monday after seeing an article about the death in the New York Times and on ABC to ask if I knew her. Those articles don't even make it feel more real and yet the fact that it is and our community is on the receiving end of what is now a news story is... unfathomable.

I needed to get out of the house today and an excuse, so I helped my sister on her first ever pinterest DIY project and took her to Walmart. After being in my PJs for two days, I knew I needed to get out and do something "normal". I got this dress on a major sale at Ruche after eyeing it for months and months with a discount code and threw it on with my birthday heels. I know blogging seems so silly when bigger things are happening and to be honest, when something puts things into perspective for me, I do feel a little bit stupid blogging and talking about what I'm wearing. But I also know, too, that blogging does make me happy. My blog is my outlet, just like my journal or my various hobbies, and it's something I love. And when you're hit again with the realization that life is short, you also realize the little things that seem stupid and trivial do matter.
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literally everything I'm wearing is Ruche, go figure...


Natalie said...

It really is so incredibly sad what happened. Yeah, when something like this happens it doesn't seem right that the world is progressing as usual, but that's all we can do, I guess. Not forget about it of course, but still allow ourselves to move past it, so don't feel like you're being superficial by blogging about clothes and things. Definitely not. It looks so beautiful there.

Jen said...

I'm so sorry to hear about her death and I know it must be heartbreaking to deal with. But you're right - life keeps going and we all keep moving along with it. We take the time to grieve but we remember to keep the little things going to keep us moving...such as blogging.

But on a more positive note, you look beautiful in all yellow and you make me want to grab all the yellow I own and rock it. Keep your chin up. :)

P.S. The solution to wanting to come to to come to NYC! Visit me! :)

Beautifully Pure said...

These photos are gorgeous and I love your outfit. I'm so sorry for what you're going through, though. :( I'll be praying for you. xo

SomeoneLikeYou said...

You honestly live in the dreamiest, prettiest place in the world. I can never get enough of your outfit posts!

And my heart goes out to you, your community, and the family <3

Bethany Kellen of bunnypicnic said...

i'm so sorry about your loss. that's such a hard thing. you know i'm here for you. well, if you don't, know that i am. <3

but you look beautiful.

Katherine / Of Corgis and Cocktails said...

so your outfit first. i still begin with the positive because it really does seem you have been through a rough time. i read this and a few other posts friday. i love your outfit and these photos are beautiful. the yellow is so pretty on you.

and i'm so sorry about your friend. she sounds like she was an amazing person, and even if you were no longer close, i am still sorry for your loss. it is amazing that she died for such a great cause, but also incredibly sad.

<3 katherine
of corgis and cocktails