Alright..okay, please don't hate me (because deep down, part of me hates me for doing this)...but...I cut off all my hair. Not all! I could never do a boy-cut...but eight inches. In my whole life, hair was been my security blanket and honestly, it's been my favorite "physical feature" since forever. That said, I had no choice. I had to cut it off. There were about four inches of pure fluff and dead hair and split ends. It desperately needed it. I've only had short hair one other time and I hated it. But so far, I'm actually loving this! It's not tooo short and it'll grow back super fast. It feels so "me" at the moment!
Is it pathetic that in deciding to cut my hair I was most concerned about how my blog pictures would look without my long hair?? But, oh it was! Finally, I just decided, regardless of what hair is "in" (and long seems to be so very in with the bloggers), this blog is about me and regardless of a silly haircut, it won't take away from the essence of me :). The solution: just do what I want. So, until next time, long hair.
I was kind of in love with this outfit today. I texted Niklaas and was like, "Ahhh! I so wish you were here to take pictures of my outfit today!" because we would have made a huge photoshoot out of it. But...for the time being, I'm sorry to say, I won't be giving you all photoshoots, just clothes. Which is okay, right? Haha :) I got this dress from Modcloth during their huge sale for $12 and I love it way more than I thought I would. The print is so endearing and I love the detail one bust! Plus, the material is so soft and cozy...I could sleep in this dress.
I don't know what "my style" is, but I loved wearing this for some reason. I usually pattern mix like crazy but I really wanted to bring out this dress and make it all about its sweetness. Add a white cardi and some grey tights to bring out the undertones in the dress with some brown heeled boots and we're good. Plus a bow:)
I went home last weekend and boy oh boy...I don't know what has happened to me. In the past week, I've cried more times than I have all year! I do feel that a good portion of the raging hormones in being a female has to do with it and it really wasn't so awful, I only cried twice. But being away finally actually hit me. I'm making tons of friends and excelling in that way, but the reality of what's not here sunk in. And part of that is the whole being awway from my dearest, too. That sunk in, too. Incredibly so. I can't describe it. They say distance makes the heart grow fonder and I can't help but feel the need to bow down to whoever "they" are. So true! It's finally absorbed that I'm not just on vacation... this is how the rest of the semester will go and all of next.
I thought maybe it was purely the distance that was creating that "falsehood" dreamy missing sensation and that it wasn't real and in being truthful, I did want to come home to sort of see what it was all about, this "missing", and I did! I wasn't purely being imaginative. Simply sitting next to him at the soccer game felt magical and like a fairytale. More so than ever, ever before. It was just...dream-like! What's happening to mee!! Hahaha :)
OKAY! This week is crazy insane. I've studied for 9 hours already for this giant test on Thursday and I have about 6 more to get in before I'm fully prepared. Yay. At my desk the other day I said to myself, "I'm going crazy this weekend after this test is done." And the guy next to me said, "Me. Too. I'm going to get f****** this weekend. Chemistry blowout at the frat. You in?" And I was all like..."Well, I was more thinking..of..erm, you know...doing laundry and watching tons of tv and internet shopping." And he stared at me for about three seconds and turned around. HA!