I just want us.

Hi dears!

Well. I had quite the jam-packed three days. Which isn't a bad thing. I love being busy. But it was very, very busy.

On Friday, I went to my top college to tour that I have already been accepted to and given a fat chunk of a scholarship. And....I think I found my future home :). I loved everything about the place. The people seemed so much like ME. It wasn't like high school at all, which was wonderful! I even sat in on some classes and talked to professors/advisers. I must say, I totally hit it off with the English adviser :). We talked about my favorite book (Lolita), one of my newest favorite bands (Fun), and about writing (she totally understands me). It was so exciting!!! Everything was so new and fresh and huge and full of endless opportunities. I am about 99% certain that this is going to be my new home for the next four years:).

Anyways...all this college stuff got me lookin online for dorm materials! Here is what I've found so far that I would la-la-love to decorate my dorm with!

Beddding:


As you can probably tell...I really like the "bird" pattern. And I love the vintage-y feel to these! The last time I got to shop for new bedding/room stuff I was 13 when I thought Hawaiian Flowers were the shizz. This is SO me right now!
I would love to pair either of these with really BRIGHT colored walls...like for the blue, bright pink or even YELLOW! And with the second bedding, I'm thinkingg red or yellow walls :).
Room (two)
Pillows:



Rugs:


Ect



Rooms I'm inspired by:




I'm really, really excited for college after this weekend.
Except...
in the back of my mind.... I'm so not looking forward to it. I never really thought about what this would feel like...leaving my family and friends behind. To be honest, I wasn't really too worried about leaving my friends behind until this year when I met some new people I fell in love with....but now there is so much I will miss. It's going to be amazing living on my own and embarking on my future (!) and meeting new people. It's going to be amazing to study new subjects I actually have a passion for (U.S. government=bye bye!) and be challenged in school. It's going to be amazing to be independent and take responsibility for myself....but at the same time...I'm never ever going to be this young again. I'll never be the older sister who drives her little sister and neighbors to school every single day and acts as the "role model". I'll never be 17 and have the security of living in my parents house and having all my bills paid. I'll never quite have the fearless freedom I have now and be able to make the same small (but meaningful) mistakes... It's sad. And scary. And I'll miss a lot of all of this...But it has to happen someday, I suppose. And all I can do is love every moment I do have left and embrace what is to come.

Love always,
maggpie