Sunday, July 24

nineteen.

it's a little bit hard to believe that I'm nineteen.
every single time I gripe about my age, all of the elders in the room say,
"don't you think it's a little too early to worry about getting old?"
my answer: no.

I know I'm not technically old. 
But what scares me is how every single year seems to go faster
and faster.
I'm mostly scared that I'm going to wake up in the blink of an eye
and everything that is happening right now,
like sitting here typing at my computer,
will be what I'm remembering as a 90 year old.
Right now is going to be a memory before I know it.

for the past six years and some odd years previous,
I've written in my diary on my birthday.
and for some reason, I always recap what I've learned,
how I've grown, what I've realized, what I want, 
what I love, and hopes for the future.

this year, however,
 I can't write pages about who I've become
and who I want to become.
there isn't much to say.

I have everything
and I'm further than where I ever thought I could be.

all I want to enjoy is right now 
while it's here.
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19 comments:

Michelle said...

Happy Birthday! Don't worry about getting old, you have a trillion more dreams and wishes to come true. Enjoy yourself :)

Kuleigh said...

Woohoo! Hope you had a fabulous birthday! Last year as a teenager!

Jul said...

Happy birthday dear! These are deep thoughts for a 19 year old! :)
Enjoy your age and don't worry about getting old, because I think that's wasted time.

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Kirstin Marie said...

Happy Birthday, sweetie!! You have so much time, just enjoy each and every moment, live day by day. Don't fret over the future, you have so much time to do that! :)

Natalie said...

I hope you had an absolutely fantastic day. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GIRL! :) It's scary getting older, but such an adventure at the same time.

SomeoneLikeYou said...

Happy Birthday Maggie! So gald that your a a wonderful and happy place in your life <3

Amber Rose, Laughing With Broken Eyes said...

happy birthday love. :)

Two Happy Hearts said...

aw, happy birthday! 19 was one of my favorite ages :) you're bound to have an amazing year.

Amber Blue Bird said...

Happy Birthday! Cheers!

Nicole, Coco Maria said...

Aww, Maggie I hope you had a wonderful birthday! I'm the same way about my age, but we're still young :)

Jasmine, Transient Withdrawal said...

Happy Birthday dear! If you're worried about getting old, then I certainly should start. I'm nearing 22 now! Ah! I'm so glad you're happy where you are in life :) <3

hellolyndsey said...

Happy Birthday my love! I write almost everyday in my diary, Josh laughs and says (aren't you a bit old for that?) My diary will always be my secret hiding/venting place. I don't care if I still like blogging, hello kitty, diaries, cupcakes, etc til the day I die, but I don't know if I'll grow out of it this year or in the next 20. We really just have to either "go with the flow" of our future, or we make it what we want it to be, no? We will always have to make choices and desicions. That's just what I always believed.

You're the best. Happy 19th again :).

xo
lyndsey of hellolyndsey

Hannah said...

You are now another year older and another year wiser. Your thoughts are put together so perfectly!

I hope that you enjoy every single second of being a teenager for this upcoming year. Happy Birthday, Maggie! :)

Steffys Pros and Cons said...

happy bday missy :) age is just a number! youre only asold as you feel!

<3 steffy
Steffys Pros and Cons

kylee said...

such a lovely post from such a lovely birthday girl! hope you had the best birthday!

Bethany Kellen of bunnypicnic said...

THE HAPPIEST OF LATE BIRTHDAYS TO YOU.

Margaret said...

Happy Birthday and best wishes to you :) Enjoy your last year as an official teen! I'm getting closer there, too.

Jamie Rose said...

Happy happy birthday! I hope it was amazing! I totally understand where you're coming from about worrying about being old though. I'm only 20 and I'm like - how am I 20 already? Every year goes by faster and faster. I feel like I'll wake up and be 80 in no time at all!

Catherine said...

Happy (very belated!) birthday!

It's crazy how fast time passes...

xox