Dearly single (and loved) ladies of the Blogosphere,
This year is somewhat strange. For the first time in my life, my valentine isn't a classroom of friends, my mom, or my best friend. I have a real-live breathing valentine. A boy to send me cute things, spend money on a silly Hallmark made-up Holiday for me, and if we were in the same place, do cute mushy things like hold hands in public while wearing red. Now, I'm not saying this to gloat. I'm not fist-pumping in your face that this year, Valentine's Day isn't my Single-Awareness Day. I am saying this because I have a Valentine and that right there is the most awe-struck thing in the world, and if I have one, each and every one of you can.
Truthfully, I've actually always enjoyed Valentine's Day. And I've never really longed for someone to do cute things for me, either. Actually, that's the very core of why just having someone is so miraculous. I was the girl in High School who didn't "do" relationships even when they were unofficially ongoing for months. I didn't want to "be" anyone's anything. It was kind of a mean game. Leading people on for weeks and months but never really being together. I'll admit first handed that it was awful. But the truth is, the real reason I never was anyone's anything, was because there was no one that I felt worthy. (Again, awful). Or maybe they were worthy, but they did things I didn't agree with which made them unworthy. Or maybe they were cute and nice and absolutely wonderful to me, but they weren't someone who made me weak in the knees or someone I was truly in every sense of the word "with".
I believe in love. I believe that loving someone is different from being "in" love. And I think you can feel both at once or you can feel them separately. But either way, for the entirety of my existence, I only wanted the real thing. I didn't want someone just to do cute things with, I wanted a best friend. I didn't want someone who just made me laugh at something funny they said, I wanted someone who made me happy every single day just because they were mine. I wanted something lasting which isn't something that's common in High School which is why I didn't date anyone exclusively. It was mean, but I definitely got my share of mean back. I got curb-stomped along the way and cried for hours over meaningless boys that actually did seem to be the Tarzan to my Jane that broke my heart by being someone different from who I thought they were. I let some people go. I was forced into letting them go. I said "next". And in the back of my mind, I remembered that real "Prince" that waited. I heard my mom's voice telling me to be picky; to not settle. I was myself through it all and didn't let up on anyone. I expect a lot out of the people I let into my life and it was hard to not make exceptions for the people who were charming and endearing.
But here is where I make my point. Valentine's Day shouldn't make you feel lame because you don't have anyone to call yours. It shouldn't make you feel stupid because you're unworthy of anyone's affection. If anything, you should think of it as you haven't found anyone worthy of you yet. Maybe that's a little bit naive. Maybe that's a little bit condescending because when it comes down to it, if you're alone and feeling alone, you do just want "someone". You want that instant pick-me-up. You don't want to endure another empty Valentine's Day.
But I have a Valentine.
It happened to me. For everything I believed in, I waited. I waited and waited. And it came true; for me. I'm not saying he's the love of my life or the one I'm going to marry, but I'm saying that for right now, I got my right now soul-mate of the moment. I got someone who met every criteria and someone I didn't settle for. Someone who is my best friend and person I smile about when there isn't anything to smile about. Someone my parents love and someone who isn't just a part of my life but is in my life. And it can happen to you!!!
And for every lonely holiday and for believing that when the right time came, I would just "know" that it was right, it was worth it when I found him.
Everything was worth the wait. And that, my darlings, is what I'm telling you. It may suck right now, but when the time comes, it will have been worth the wait. I urge you to love the people you have in your life now and concentrate what you have.
Take pride, for there aren't many that deserve you and only you.