currently listening: april

[001] Fearless-Colbie Cailatt
[002] White Blank Page- Mumford and Sons
[003] Beautiful, Beautiful- Francesca Battistelli
[004] Stars- The XX
[005] We've Got Everything- Modest Mouse
[006] I Could Say- Lily Allen
[007] MFEO- Jack's Mannequin
[008] Who Says- Selena Gomez
[009] I Wanna Be The One- Fun
[010] I Do- Cataldo
[011] Marching Bands Of Manhattan- Death Cab For Cutie (c/o my sister)
[012] Don't You Wanna Stay- Jason Aldean ft. Kelly Clarkson
[013] Ours- Taylor Swift
[014] Annie Waits- Ben Folds
[015] By The Time- Mika ft. Ingrid Michaelson

i love

i love:

-chocolate chip pancakes for dinner

-the unfortunately named town called "Smelterville"

-niklaas' new flannel

-my best friend from having a boy toy

-eating lunch with my sister

-stalking colbie caillat (pictures to come)

-lucky underwear

-new towels bought by momma

but most of all?
I LOVE ACING CHEMISTRY TESTSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):):)

under my umbrella

It was the middle of the night, lying on the baby blue floral couch we'd laid on just the same a thousand times before. Your fingers ran along my cheek, lips brushing familiar ground. Beneath layers of flannel and down comforters by the plenty, I could feel the warmth and pounding of your heart; irregularly regular at best. Everything was exactly as it should be; together, nestled in a singular place that could be pinpointed with the same tack on a map. And when your fingers brushed just there, I could feel the giggle rising in my throat without my consent and your lips smile as you tickled by accident. I pulled back ever so slightly feeling your warmth breath fill the space between us. I wanted to memorize every moment and keep it locked away tightly where I could always hold you again. I wanted the infinite ability to come back to precisely this. This moment that would forever hold us to the ease of our youth, just two kids on a single couch as nothing more than just kids. Under the blue light of the television screen, I saw your green eyes looking at me looking at you. And again, without a thought, I giggled.


I find myself going back to everything these days. Thinking about those memories and thoughts that are now four seasons old. Remembering what I was doing, what I was thinking, where I was going just one year ago. So much has changed and all of it for the better, but it's only when the sun comes out granting coat-free weather once again that I realize just exactly where I am and where I was. I'm almost done with my freshmen year of college. I was a graduating senior. I'm going to college with my friendboy. I was best friends with someone I thought wasn't going to be in my life for more than a couple more months, if that. I'm almost 19. I was almost 18.  I am completely content. I was confused. I know it's not a lot and I know I tend to be a bit of a drama-queen, but I feel like a completely different person in a completely different relationship than I was on April 8th of last year. It's amazing, really, to come so far in just a year and to be able to really see in front of my eyes everything that's changed. I love being able to look at my diary from exactly a year ago and so specifically remember everything that was happening and comparing just how different they are now.



One year ago, Niklaas and I had our first 'photoshoot'. We were driving around today, me in my new Modcloth umbrella dress and hot pink umbrella Niklaas made the decision of me purchasing. It's true, I'm so bad at weighing out in my head whether I want to spend the six dollars on something I know I will use frequently and is a practical choice. Like, impulse oxfords at Ross. Or a hot pink umbrella. We ended up at the exact same place where we had our first shoot one year ago. Last time, we didn't really know what we were doing. I laughed, awkwardly, a lot. And he clicked hesitantly, a lot. This time, it was easy. I laughed naturally and he clicked as he pleased. And, at the end of the day, I came away loving these pictures more than almost all of ours combined.

dress-Modcloth tights-Forever21 shoes-Lulus bow-Forever21 umbrella-Ross

Most of the time (okay, half of the time) I can regain debit card control against Modcloth when I fall in love. This was not one of these times. I saw the umbrella print and that was really all it took. It was an added bonus that it was not rayon and that it had buttons on the back. I knew upon first glance that I was going to use an umbrella when I finally took pictures of it. It seems that whenever we have the clearest visions for our shoots, they turn out the most different. However, this almost always means they turn out different for the best! I wanted dark and dreary for this shoot but we got bright and sunny. Which turned out perfect because I haven't had a drop of spring on the blog yet. I know everyone has long since dove into spring, but consider this my spring debut!


I felt a little silly in yellow tights and an umbrella printed dress with a hot pink umbrella and blue bow in my hair. In fact, I felt like I was five years old again. But I couldn't be happier with how all the colors worked together and how happy these pictures are! I swear, this is the kind of photoshoot I want every single time. I think the constant in the equation is Niklaas. Hehe ;)




Tonight, we are going to dinner and watching Tangled and doing fun adventure things. For those of you in a relationship, do you have designated "dates"?? It's so funny because if everything we planned together was considered a date...then we would have been dating much longer than we actually have. So when people like my mom say, "Oh, are you and Niklaas going on a date tomorrow?" I have to stop and think... well is it? Hahaha. I guess it depends on the definition ;) Nonetheless, it doesn't really matter to me. I have fun date or no date!

hummingbird heartbeat

Just one day after returning home, I walked into the living room and my dad asked me, "Maggie, are you wearing Geisha makeup today?" Me: "No, Dad. I don't have any makeup on..." Him: "Are you sure? You look so white. Don't you ever go outside?" Yes. I am that pale. Pale enough that it looks like I am a Geisha. I guess this means I am living up to the pre-med student name? Pale skin and all? Ha. Ha. Ha. I guess if I'm going to slave my life away to studying chemistry and biology, I might as well try to laugh at myself. Right?!?


So far this spring break, I have not accomplished a fraction of what I said I would. What I have done? Start writing letters, watch the office, and take naps. What I haven't done? Do homework in a coffee shop, write, take pictures with my tripod, go to the post office, make a headband, sew, and read a book. I have fallen into this pit of watching tv for hours and waking up very late and not eating lunch until 4PM. It's terrible. Tomorrow, at least, I have a scheduled haircut in the morning and a job interview in the afternoon, so a productive day might be in the cards at last. Mostly, I've been cuddling and sweater wearing and movie watching and eating ice cream with Niklaas even though I'm not the one who got their wisdom teeth removed. Whoops!


I know, I know, I know. I've taken pictures in exactly this spot quite a few times now, which happens to be my home back yard. Someone commented and described it as "dreary" and I couldn't agree more! But for now, it's working and I kind of like it. So there. These shorts were one of those Maggie-Must-Haves-That-Never-Ended-Up-Being-Worn. I have many of these items. I just wrote a paper about clothing waste and the environmental impact of making clothes, though, so I'm trying to decrease that number greatly (seriously, researching this paper was way, way too informative and I may need to post it on the blog). I love the floral and I like the print and, well, I just like these shorts....but I don't wear them! Eeek!


I really had no idea how to style these up and ended up wearing solids on top and patterned tights. It ended up kind of funky and I'm not crazy about this outfit, but like most bloggers will say, you have to post things you aren't in love with. I am an ever changing camellion and while I probably will never wear this again, it was a step in the stairs to my personal style. Woot!

Well, it's past my bedtime. I'm way too excited for Thursday. A radio ad, three short texts, a few squeals, and $50 later and I have two tickets to Colbie Caillat. My sister and I are going to go wait in line for hours way too early and sing Colbie's lyrics back to her in the front row. Oh, and drool over Lee Dwyze from American Idol. I could not be more excited. At all. Dream come true! This is going to be a blog post in itself. Promise.

never let me go

Let me tell you a story. One day, that happened to be a Friday, Friday, Friday, a girl named Maggie sat in a car for five long hours following the windy road from  Missoula, Montana to a teensy town in Idaho that is not in Russia. She ran through the door of her little white home and leaped onto the couch she helped her mom pick out when she was eight next to her sister she also helped her parents pick out (kidding) and died of bliss. Seven weeks away at school and there was nothing like coming home. But then, nature called, so Maggie hopped to the bathroom. It was only after she was unrolling a sheet of toilet paper that she noticed...but, what? A new toilet? And indeed, a new toilet had been installed in favor of the old green one that had been in the house since before she was born. And this was the moment that she realized along with discovering a clay turtle in the newly planted garden that had never been planted and a new rolling pin to roll cookie dough just how much she had missed. How even though this was home, life had carried on without her like she'd never even been there at all. All except for her little nine by nine foot bedroom decked in Taylor Swift memorabilia, these little instances of change could be found anywhere. And while it may have alarmed her that there had been a new toilet installed without her knowledge, it eased her mind to see that without her, things around the house were changing along with the people in it. The things that were noticeably different were noticeable signs of people's lives changing. A living room turned into an art studio by her little who was prospering and growing into a remarkable human being without her near. Maggie may have left and her family may have settled into a routine without her presence there every day, but coming home to feel how things have shifted to find a new, slightly older and different role in the household is a beautiful thing in itself. Change isn't a bad thing.

The wonderful thing about being short is this. Right here. Finding a top at Goodwill for two dollars that's long enough to be a dress. I love that! The same goes for short skirts- on really short gals, they aren't that short and look perfectly okay. It's great. I wear this top more than almost any in my closet anymore. Tucked into jeans, layered with dresses, with skirts, with shorts... you name it! I love it. It's perfect. I'm also debuting my target opaque tights which are perfect, also. These babies are never going to rip!

dress/top: Goodwill blazer: Mom shoes: Steve Madden tights: Target necklace: borrowed from friend belt: Goodwill

I still have this dear owl necklace from my pal Margaret. Whoops. I'm so bad at buying jewelry, though, that when I find something I like, I never want to get rid of it. This red blazer is my mom's and I find myself stealing more and more of her things lately...oops!



Anyways, I'm sorry for going MIA so suddenly. I do disappear every 3 weeks. However, I spent two days away from the computer entirely when I got home and it was the best thing in the world. Focusing strictly on enjoying my family and just being in my house again. Lovely. My dear friendboy had his wisdom teeth out, so basically, I spent the entire day on the couch with him watching movies while he slept on my shoulder. Which wasn't so bad, really. I watched Never Let Me Go today and it blew my mind!!! The whole idea of children being born purely for the purpose of using their organs was so disturbing and I have an ever growing love for Carrie Mulligan. I recommend that you all go watch it, especially if you have an ill surgery bed-ridden by snoring by your side ;)

I'm off to bed! I'm back to the blogging world, for a while. So I'll be commenting you lovely people back-- promise! <3

it is official

-i don't just want rain boots, i need them for the sake of my toes' well being

-girls who say they hate drama are the ones who cause it

-my brain is exhausted and spring break couldn't come at a more perfect time

-Lady Gaga's songs aren't appealing to me anymore at all

-i miss my sister so much it hurts

- my dream is to see fire flies

-i love sleepovers on school nights

-this is the slowest week of my life

-modcloth is killing me with their sweet spring dresses

-yoga is the best hour of my day

-mary kate and ashley are my favorite

-i'm way behind in the blog world (sorry!!)

-i love day of the week underwear
-tangled is my favorite movie

midnight cowboy

This outfit is. So. Not. Me. Remember a long time ago (but you probably don't) when I said that the only time I ever looked even "remotely" hipster compared to the always hipster Niklaas was when I wore plaid and then all hipster broke loose? This was one of those days. Maybe one of these days I'll try to make a girly plaid outfit, but, really, I don't think it's possible and everyone has to have their "different/experimental" days!

I got this sweater two years ago because I just had to have an ultra comfy sweater and Hollister sweaters are typically very cozy. I didn't know it was going to be forty inches long though, so it's basically a dress, and I have never worn it in public. It isn't something for petite gals to pull off! And, when I decided to wear something with it, I just thought...plaid. And then shorts. And then tights. And then my "hipster" boots. And voila. Un-Maggielike outfit!

sweater-Hollister & Co top-Aeropostale tights-Urban Outfitters shorts-Old Navy boots-Niklaas hat-Urban Outfitters

This weekend was the best weekend ever. Seriously. My cousin is considering going to UM next year and he came on Friday to tour the school. He ended up hanging out with my friends and I for the entirety of the night and then hiked the "M" with us the next morning. Niklaas was also here for his soccer team so I've seen him twice this week (a record, surely). Niklaas attended our movie night along with my cousin and it was just a giant group of my best friends and him. I positively loved it. It's always funny because I know in my heart I like that kid a lot, but when I'm with him, I realize I have no idea how much I adore him until that moment that he's right there. And I get giggly and nervous and smiley and it's just like the first time I saw him. One year later and it's still just like day one, just older, wiser, and even closer than before.



We also went to the hot springs which required a two mile hike. It was a very full day and when I got home from dinner afterwards with Niklaas and his family, I collapsed into bed and slept for a full twelve hours. It was glorious. This week is going to be torture (chemistry midterm!) but guess what?? SPRING BREAK IS ONLY FOUR DAYS AWAY!!!!!! I'm going to die. I'm so, so excited.

Well, I need to go continue my chemistry consuming. Bleck. I won't be too attentive to the blog this week (it's an every three week pattern) but I'll be reading your comments! Thank you all for how wonderful you are to me. Next week, I'll finalllly be posting my giveaway, and I think you'll enjoy it. (Hint: Modcloth!)