snowed in

Life without my mother home is proving to be a hardship on us all. Especially when the substitute mother of the household gets knocked out with the same illness that the father and sister have. And so, two days of couch laying ensued in which I did nothing but watch four discs of Gilmore Girls and moan in agony of having a fever. All while trying to pick up here and there and cook and do errands while my dad and sister themselves wither in pain. We've gone through three boxes of Kleenex's in two days. And I've emptied the garbage double that. We are a cesspool of germs and bacteria!

I'll be honest. I've kind of been holding out. Not in a good way. I started this blog as a kind of..."diary". An open and honest diary in which I wrote about everything in a day; spared of the few more intimate details I saved for my actual journal. I mean, how many of you can't say that you don't enjoy reading old posts?? For me in particular, I tend to write novels and going back and reading something so specific as a one sentence thought that I can vividly remember writing is irreplaceable! Remembering where I was, what I was doing, and how I was feeling. Anyways, I just think that's really cool. But because of a sudden increase in audience members, I haven't been sticking to that old regime quite like I used to. And I think it's about time I talk about what's going through my mind every single day. My aunt was diagnosed with cancer about two months ago. It has developed in her blood and bones. She also had a tumor in her colon and brain. The doctors are treating her with chemo and my mom has been leaving every so often to attend the occasional treatment with her. It isn't so hard on me as it is to watch my mom and family go through this. Imagining my sister at 43 being given such a diagnosis makes me chocked up as it is. However, my aunt is holding up really well and on Christmas, she had fourth servings at dinner. A lot of people going through chemo are sick constantly and have no appetite whatsoever, withering them down. We are all happy that my aunt has kept her appetite strong and able to eat whole chocolate bars at a time still. Hehe.

shirt- Urban Outfitters shoes-Thrifted hat-American Eagle vest-Thrifted belt-Goodwill


Anyways, thank you all so much for all the feedback on the last post!! That post was probably my biggest success yet. I can't tell you some really (!!!) excellent news yet, but let me tell you, it scored me a really awesome prize. We also started a flickr which is sort who we owe the success of the last post to! :) It's awesome awesome awesome. It made me squeal!! I was also featured on the front page of Chictopia with it! EEEP. It was a good couple of days, minus the being ill thing!


I got this flannel for Christmas because my other flannel seems to continually have shrunk over the past year with every wash. It hardly fits my sister anymore when it used to be loose on me! Hmph! I decided to opt for some Urban Outfitters flannel since I had never tried theirs, and I'm in love. The colors are so vibrant and it is so comfortable! You all know that I am not a pants wear-er so consider this a rarity. Haha. I really don't like these pants. I wear one pair, usually, but I sat in some powdered sugar over Christmas and they need washed! Ha! Under my shirt I'm wearing a vest I helped my friend Katie from school pick out at Goodwill. I need to fix it for her and make some sewing amends, but...I haven't gotten to it...yet:). So I stole it.


My sister isn't one for Christmas presents and when I told her how much I loved her hat, so instead of buying me something, she gave me this hat. It seriously saved my soul in the last month of school- the fur is honestly so warm! I love it dearly. I wear it all the time. And while I still tease my sister about being cheap, I am actually so happy she gave me it. I wear it constantly! I think you all are so familiar with my boots that I need not tell you about them. Ha! I really want some blank ankle boots. I've been searching everywhere!


Niklaas got to my house this morning at 7:30am because I have to babysit tonight and tomorrow and because he was snowed in for two days. Seriously. It was a blizzard here at home. We got at least a foot of snow, I would say. My mom wasn't able to make it home but hopefully it's clear enough that she'll make it back tonight!