i'm a spoiled brat on spring break in hawaii

i think it's safe to say a few things right now. first of all, that i've never experienced such luxury before. despite what they say, don't choose a roommate based on the kind of person they are. choose a roommate based on the kind of people and/or family they know (i'm only kind of kidding...). obviously i won out because my roommate is the best person i know and also has family that live in hawaii. win. second, this might just be the easiest kind of happy to feel ever but it's amazing how it suddenly makes me stop dwelling on the negative to focus on the harder kind of happy that is finding it when i'm not in hawaii. this, hawaii, is a kind of happiness that doesn't take effort but just sort of IS. you don't have to look for it, it's just kind of everywhere around you all at once stopping you in your tracks to remind you that the world is a pretty stinkin' cool place. it's bigger than you are. it's not all snow in march, tests to study for, and people that just suck. it's big and bright and happy and i think sometimes i just need to remember that even while i'm sulking in montana wishing i was somewhere else. because there are worse places in the world. far worse places. my problems are pretty minuscule  and, well, i do love montana after all. and i'm pretty much as spoiled as spoiled is right now.

and i'm not taking a second of it for granted. i have a wonderful life no matter if i'm sleeping on infinity count sheets in a guest bedroom overlooking the ocean or driving fifteen minutes to class at 8am on a monday in montana. stop complaining, self. you have no reason to complain and i just don't want to hear it anymore.