my missing puzzle piece.

Alright...this is a huge moment. Monumental. They say there's a first time for everything...and, well, here you go. This is the first time I am wearing pants on my blog. The first!! Here's my little secret: I hate pants. I honestly don't wear them hardly at all. Maybe twice a month. Maybe three. But no more than that. I guess it has a lot to do with the fact that I find them uncomfortable, but in all honesty, it's because being 4'11" and being so short, I hate the way my short legs look in them..which is...short!!! I envy all of you tall people or people with pretty lean legs that can make jeans look even more fabulous than dresses. 

This week...was kind of horrible. I had a major meltdown internally. It started with getting my chemistry test back and finding out I barely even passed. Like, by barely passed I mean, a D. And in chemistry, a 65 and under is technically an F, so technically, I did fail. Bahhh. I'm used to doing well and I'm used to hard work paying off when I study so this was kind of a huge deal. My self-doubt plummeted and literally, it was leaking into every aspect of my life! I started doubting my abilities in my biology class, my blog, my friendships, and everything. I felt like such a failure. I even started contemplating switching my major completely and second guessing my future goals. It was horrible! I cried. And that hasn't happened in so very long. Ughhh.

I guess on the bright side of things, if there is a bright side, two good things did happen this week. Firstly, I made a new friend. And a friend, friend. Not just someone I talk to so I can get by or someone to go to meals with me to eat alone, but a real friend that I found myself genuinely and completely laughing with! He's probably strangest person I've ever met being from the South and having an accent, wearing plaid flannel in 90 degree weather, being on the track team on a full scholarship, and choosing geology as a major. I may have found my gay-best friend I've always wanted minus the sexual orientation part, yes! He has a car, and we are going to the mall this weekend. Huzzah!

The second good thing? I am officially Wikipedia famous! Sort of, anyways ;). I got contacted by someone telling me that Wikipedia made a page for my blog. EEEEP!!! I was kind of excited, even if I'm not the only one with a page, obviously. It's cool! See my wikipedia page there!

My style stumps me. It's never the same, and this isn't really an exception. Ha!! I got this cardigan for my birthday because I had wanted a red one for so long, but they shipped me the wrong size, so it's a smidge large on me. And by a smidge, I mean, a lot. I'm too lazy to send it back, so instead I just wear it as is. I don't know if you can tell, but I'm wearing my oxford button down shirt I thrifted under it along with my oh-so-endearing scarf from the H&M garden collection I got in Seattle last April. With Niklaas! Yayy! No "Maggie" outfit would be complete without a bow or something floral, so of course, my white one is sitting atop my 59 inches on my head. Yay! These shoes are my favoriteee. I'm in the market for some brown ones currently:)

cardigan- delias jeans- forever21 scarf-H&M shoes-UO

It happens to be the first of October. I have five favorite days of the year: May first, October first, October 31st, December 25th, and May 14th. In that order. Meaning, October first is my second favorite day of the year! Yayy!! It kind of amazes me how Niklaas and I became "official" on the first of May, because I wear to you, it's been at the top of my list since I was a flower-child and danced around the May Pole every year. I LOVE MAY 1st! Oh, and yes, that does mean it's our "five month"! I feel silly calling anything an anniversary unless it's in a six month increment. To me, relationships start to become actually justifiably legit to the real world at six months. Which means...holy cow, we are almost "legit". Holy cow. Holy cow. It's kind of amazing :). And every day just gets better! Even if the being apart thing is sucking currently. Someone commented my blog and commented on how I mention him in every post. Oooops! I apologize! I guess it's because he's such a big part of this blog and, yes, my life. So, naturally, it happens. I just adore him a little!

In fact, a year ago to the day, Niklaas and I "began". A year ago to the day, we would be gathered around the commons talking Mexico-Trip strategies. We met on the "Turtle Trip", a trip to save sea turtles in Mexico, as founded by the Environmental Club. It was there that we became friends and that I fell asleep on his shoulder in the car and the plane and danced together all night so I didn't have to be groped by the guys there and took naps with and shared 3AM shifts on the beach together. It's amazing how much can change in a year and how much can change when you least expected it. It's cheesy, but everything hit a turning point after that when I absolutely had no idea it could. In every way! Not just with him. Words can't describe it and it kills me that I can't go this year!! This also means, a week without communication. We've gone two days in the past 10 months of not talking. Can I make it?? :)

Well, I guess I don't have a whole lot more to say except thank goodness it's Friday and thank goodness September is over!! I hate September. It's always a bad month for me :)

My roommate is leaving for the weekend....and...for that matter...all six friends I've obtained. I think I'm just going to kick back, watch a lot of movies, do some laundry, go to the mall with my new friend, and just....relax. Maybe write a little :)

Love,
Maggie